Way Beyond Love.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Lost Generation

Posted at 11:21 PM.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

On the surface, everything's different.
Deep inside, nothing has changed.

It took me awhile to recover from the blank out in my mind.
Stunned for that moment.

It's still the same.
Just a second beats the so many months.
That second of contact, told me nothing has changed.
I wonder how is it so difficult to forget.

I miss the past.
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YO!

HRM presentation yesterday wasn't that tough afterall.
Ok, i didn't understand B.Cal despite reading it till 4am. It didn't get into my head at all.
AND. I didn't know today's B.Cal test was the Mid-sem test!! Goodness gracious, luckily Chrystle helped me with some of the questions. The rest of it i just anyhow bomb.

School was relaxing today, but it's a waste of time seriously.
I skipped B.Cal lect at 9am in the morning. Went for the tut at 10am.
Supposed to have lectures/tutorials all the way from 1-5pm.
But the lecture lasted for only an hr, so had an hr break, went for Apel and the tcher came for less than 5mins, so had an hr break again, then had half hr of BOE.

Mid-sem tests are coming, like damn fast. We just started school no?
Lucky me had only 3 papers but i haven't started on anything yet. Gotta start soon cause i don't have much time alrdy! I'm working on Sunday! Oh man..

I FEEL...
Kinda sad cause i'm broke again.
Kinda happy cause i drank pudding milktea today.
Kinda excited cause i'll be receiving 2 more items this weekend.
Kinda confused cause i don't know why am i like that. With a stubborn brain and heart.

Posted at 8:23 PM.

I WANT TO SLEEP!

Time check: 2:35AM

Peiling!!!!!!!! :( :( :(
I.......haiiii
(you should know) :(

Fucking tired. Reading the stupid B.Cal now, I don't understand how to apply at all. and it's not getting into my head.

I think i can just fail this stupid test. Feel like getting a MC, but later must retest, no much difference.
AIYYYYYYY, I HATE IT LA. Kill me please!

I bought my leather jacket tdy.

I spent 80bucks today.

I just spent another 25bucks again.

I'm waiting for 6th of June to come.

I wanna buy more stuffs.

I feel like robbing the bank.

I am extremely tired now.

I feel like sleeping.

But i'm not done with B.Cal.

I think i'll just leave it and go to sleep.

Cause nothing's getting into my damn head.

But no, i must at least finish reading everything.

So i should stop wasting my life away here.

I am going to read that idiotic subj now.

Get it done and over with. Fail the test also can, i'm prepared.

I hope i can sleep soon.

Everyday sleep so late, one day i might die due to lack of sleep.

K BYE.

Posted at 2:24 AM.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Spree

Let me post something to push those posts down.

For the past few weeks, i've been shopping non stop and I mean it.
-Grey big Vest
-Oversized tee
-iLappy case
-Dress
-Semi-formal Shirt-dress
-Denim Vest
-Old Navy Jacket
-Old Navy Flipflops
-Casual comfy navy blue top
-Black Leather Jacket (getting tmr)
-High waist skirt (soon)
-White shorts (soon)
-Normal white Tank top (soon)
-Pretty bags (soon i hope)

Everything within 2-3weeks. Not like the stuffs are very cheap, not like i've too much money to spent. But i'm just so addicted to it(online shop especially). And thinking of getting new stuffs makes me very excited! HAHAHA

I need to stop.

HR presentation and skit tmr! Formal wear again, i don't like it cause i feel damn uncomfortable in it.
I still need to read the peer teaching notes and mindmaps :(

3 HOURS BREAK TMR AGAIN! SIAN TO THE MAX, DAMN WASTE OF TIME :(

Posted at 10:17 PM.

Past that road, my heart was pumping hard.

I can take on something very easily, but when it comes to putting it down, it's really difficult. Just like when i set my mind on something, i won't give it up so easily. I don't like to admit defeat.

There's alot of things i can't let go and forget, can't put it down and off my mind. Yet again, i don't have the courage to face it.

It was the best prove..when i was afraid of being myself.

Posted at 3:06 PM.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Crush or Crushed?

Sounds familiar?

Initially it was 'hope', but i changed it to 'crushed' tonight.

Yesterday as mentioned in the previous post, i went to Fion's house. Completed my MBS Quiz too! but i missed my last bus from the inter, so gotta change bus. Reached home kinda late, ard 1am?
So today i worked the morning shift, 930am till 630pm. Woke up damn early of course, but still cab down in the end. Work was kinda alright, i was feeling quite hyped up in the morning, very happy and jumpy.
Kevin and JunChao came to the store, they waited for me to end then we headed down to DTE/Ehub for dinner. I had my pudding milktea with extra pudding again=) Woohoo, damn addictive. And whenever i drink that, i feel really happy.
I feel like having it now. It's the great time to consume that awesome drink!
OK, we met up with one guy(i forgot his name), Severin & his gf, WeiJie, and XianQi.
We went 3 different places for dinner, cause we took turns to eat lol.
The last destination was at PasirRis Town Park, and we sat there for a few hours i guess. I was listening to their conversation most of the time. Their gay conver, HAHA

OK, done with the updates for today.

Posted at 11:59 PM.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

happy pills

(I didn't manage to complete this post on Sat, so i'm posting it now at 3AM, Monday. So everything's blogged in Sat's mood, ha)

I'm happy today!
Despite sleeping at 6am in the morning and waking up at 12pm by a phone call.
Did the HRM proj overnight and finally it's done! yay! the reflection journal wasn't that tough afterall, i just typed out what i feel.

So today, my house had a little bit of changes. New furnitures coming in! but for 2 of the rooms only. and it doesn't include mine :( I only have a new mattress.
Anyway, my room's in a mess now! and i hate to pack up.

AND YA! I'm in boyf's house now! (sounds scandalous uh)
i think i'm a damn sweet gf, cause i went over to PR inter to get cupwalker for both of us then headed to hougang, with my heavy laptop. It took me an hour, tsk. But pudding milktea with extra pudding is damn addictive please. i drank it like a few hours ago and i'm craving for it now!

My dress arrived! double yay! waiting for my vest now :D

Ok i just remembered, my bro took out his braces alrdy! When's your turn Dora? Please go to the dental regularly ok!

I need to do my MBS quiz too. after dinner!

OHYA! and my hair grew longer alrdy! No more bob okay!

AND YES, i'm gna update NOW. and it'll definately be a duper long post with lotsa pictures. Bear with it and enjoy! hahaha
(most recent ones will be on top, i'll try to briefly update abit on everyday IF i can remember, haha)

22 MAY 09, Friday
Worked till closing, then met up with Jessica, Diane and AhLong for supper, slacked and home in the midnight.

20 MAY 09, Wednesday
met Serena, Lester, Kevin and Winston tdy! OMG I MISS SERENA SO MUCH! So long since i last met up with her! :( I hope Sem2.2 quickly come so everyone will be back in school again! YAY! Dinner at JapanVillage(RE BEN CHUN). Direct translate! hahaha! Chatted for damn long after dinner, till midnight. Love=)

17 MAY 09, Sunday
I woke up late for work, so i was rushing to prepare. I walked past the living room but didn't really take notice of my surroundings. But i did roughly saw that all my family members were all outside. I didn't know anything till when i'm done changing and my elder bro knocked on my door and asked me to help Mummy change. That was when i knew Mummy fainted in the morning, and couldn't really move or walk. I already felt damn bad. And cause i have to quickly help her change and rush out for work, i felt even bad. They called Uncle down to bring her to the hospital and all of them went. Triple guilty.
I'm a really bad child :(:(:(:(:(

OK, so worked in the morning, then headed home. Thanks Simon for letting me go early! Wanted to go down to the hospital but bro told me they were on their way back alrdy. So i waited at home instead. Was kinda relieved when i saw Mummy feeling better. Stayed at home for the afternoon then went out to meet Fion in the evening to Bugis, MarinaSq then Suntec. Jessica came after work. NIce day too! (minus whatever happened in the morning)

16 MAY 09, Saturday
Work till evening, then meet up with min to Peninsular, Funan, CityHall and Bugis area. Everything within that few hours in the evening. And i bought her Taiwan sausage! Told you pple i'm a sweet gf! HAHAHA! Dinner and left at ard 11plus. Another nice day! :D

15 MAY 09, Friday(PGD DAY)
Friday = No school for me!
Went down to Bradell, Singapore Press Holdings to help collect Mummy's stuffs. The place's damn cool i tell you. But the office's damn scary. I went to the LianHeWanBao's office(I think should be la, just one of the newspaper's main office), scarily quiet please! What i could hear was only my own footsteps and all the typing sounds. They all look damn serious in writing the news articles. HAHA. So i went in to one of their office and collected the stuffs. Then headed back to school, meet AL, then to Kovan to meet Fion. ate KFC and i bought a top! =) Had a long nice chat bfre heading home! :D

14 MAY 09, Thursday
Lectures with Huimin and Leeboon, laughing day. Dinner opp. school, nice day=)

Posted at 7:27 PM.