I've been in a really bad mood recently. ever since school started.
I HATE SCHOOL NOW.
i've just asked someone else to take over me for tmr's work. well, gna go Jess's eighteenth bday celebration tmr at Alps. At least not so tiring, cause my shift's till closing, which is 11pm.
Ok, though i've been slacking and rotting for the whole of this week, i still feel really tired. physically tired, mentally tired, arghhhhh
I've been reflecting on myself as well, i've been feeling really bad, which i don't know why either. I don't know how to put it into words but it's just.... i hate myself for not acomplishing anything. i hate it that my life was not completed, with bits and pieces yet to be fixed. i hate it when i made the wrong decisions/choices. i hate it when i caused pple ard me to be upset. i hate it when i thought i was the best, but i'm not. i hate it when i wanted to do smth, but i can't. i hate it when i feel really helpless. i hate it when i can't express myself to anybody. i hate it when nobody can read my mind. i hate it when i'm not nice. i hate it when i'm not who i am. i hate myself for not being the 'ideal me'. i hate it most that i'm feeling really bad now.
I haven't been on my best for quite some time. I just feel like my life is somehow lack of some things. some things which are meant to be mine. I'M UNHAPPY.
OK, enough of all the craps. LesterLoh gna call me "gay sy" again.
. . . Back to serious stuff now.
I woke up with swollen eyes tdy. i don't rmb crying in my dreams leh, lol. or maybe i sleep too much until eye swollen -.- but i never sleep alot, not too little either
School is way too boring, that i can't find any appropriate description for it.
Too many birthdays coming at one go, i need money. Stupid M1, i want my pay la
Any interesting places to go? Singapore's really boring!